Yuyu's Cancer Diary
August 20, 2008
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Tomorrow, I am going to see my oncologist for the first time. I am embarassed to say that I did not know what an oncologist is or does until now. But, she supposedly is the “cancer” doctor, the one in charge of deciding best treatment for me.
I am also going to see a second surgeon tomorrow. He will look at all my imaging and test results. Then, he will give me his recommendation on what’s best for me from the surgical point.
I am a little scared. Maybe I am scared that I will be given more “bad” news from either my oncologist or a surgeon. Maybe I am scared that my oncologist and second surgeon will not listen to my concerns and fear.
Not knowing exactly what is going on feels like an ultimate mental torture. At times, I feel like just going to my surgeon and begging “I can’t take this torture, please just cut off my boobs and get rid of my cancer!”. I just want to go through this, survive this, and get it over with, quick.
Waiting is so hard.
Stacey 
Thanks for your support -
Yuyu,
I hope you get some answers tomorrow…and I truly hope they help resolve some of your anxiety. I’m here if you want to talk or vent (or b.s.—lol). You have gone through a lot in the last 2 weeks (and have been very proactive during that time!). Stay positive! :-)
Make sure to write tomorrow after you see the Dr. I want to know what’s going on with you. We are all going through the same He** together. I am here for you and if you ever want to talk I will give you my number.
Sonia
Waiting…
I understand your desire to cut it out and get on with life. That is my attitude.
You have gone through a lot very fast, hang in there. Cancer has drawn you into a long race, but you can win. Like everyone here, you are now a survivor! Welcome to the family.
Like the ladies posted, anytime you get overwhelmed or lonely drop by, that is what we do here, we support one another.
If I may make one suggestion. You say “the Dr. is the one making the decisions about your cancer”. Learn everything you can about your cancer and it’s treatment options, ask question and challenge answers. Be aggressive and never allow yourself to be bullied into a treatment. Doctors are great but at the end of the day they are your employees. They work for you. My experience is that once they realize that you are a survivor and not a victim their attitude shifts from telling you things, to discussing things and if it doesn’t you need a new doctor.
Be blessed
Mac
Hi Yuyu,
I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis. You are very brave. Please follow your gut. It is so important to find a Doctor who will listen. I did interviewed so many oncologists. I found my surgeon after only one other appointment. I was single when I was diagnosed. It was horrible for me to think I don’t have a special man in my life to go through this with. I leaned on all of my friends. Ask for help now. Don’t wait, I did and it was horrible. No one should go through this alone. Put together a team. I will help you in any way I can. Kathleen
Yuyu,
How are you today. You are doing Chemo 1st too. That’s a change from the previous blog. What did they tell you on your visit today?
You are right, we are going through this together only mine has to begin next week. I will tell you all about my 1st treatment when I come home – if I have the strngth. They say it tires you so if it takes me a day or two be patient. I’ll let you know what day I geging mine.
We’ll make it. We just have to keep in touch with each other and all the wondeful people here.
You are in my prayers and thoughts every single day!
Sonia