Yuyu's Cancer Diary
Hi, All!
I’m glad to see a lot of activities and posts going on lately on this site! I may sound cheesy, but I really love this place and hearing about others’ stories. I love encouraging and inspiring each others here.
As for me, I am doing okay. I had my second Taxol & Herceptin treatment today. It went smoothly and I am not experiencing bad side effects. This treatment regimen (weekly) has been much easier for me to deal with compared to the last regimen which was every 3 week. I can actually function and do things so far.
I’ve been trying to keep myself busy mostly with “projects”. I decided to get a fundraising thing going to help pay my expenses and also for costs needed for long-waited outside 2nd opinions from more progresive breast cancer treatment centers (e.g. UCLA). So with help from my friends, I have been promoting my ChipIn site. I am happy and grateful that people are contributing despite of this bad economy.
A few days ago, my lovely boyfriend got me an early Christmas gift. He gave me a video game, “Rock Band”, to keep me busy and entertained. It’s really fun! I can virtually be a member of rock band and play guitar, drums, and vocal. The vocal part is my favorite though I’m no way from being a good singer. Singing is such a tention reliever! I love singing loud to let all my anger, frustration, and anxiety out of my system (hopefully, my neighbors are not going to complain…).
I am also knitting like crazy! Crochet knitting takes some of my worries and anxiety away. When I can’t sleep, I just crochet away. Last night, I could not sleep so I was experimenting and trying to crochet a beenie hat. I completed it, but it turned out to be more like a beret hat. I am now going to knit a shawl for my mom.
One problem, though, is sleeping difficulty. I am sleeping in average of 4 hours a night. I am not sure if it is anxiety or medical related, but I am having such a hard time with getting a good night sleep. I usually wake up in the middle of the night and can’t go back to sleep. I somtimes take sleeping pills (Ambien or Restrol), but they lost effectiveness over time, so I’m not bothering with them anymore. Maybe I will try acupuncture or Yoga.
Also wanted to share that I have been out to public without a wig this week for the first time. I went to a support group, and one girl told me that she likes going out with just a scarf on her head because it made her feel like it is a badge of honor as a cancer fighter. She said she does not feel the need to cover up the fact that she is in treatment, but rather proud of it.
So, I tried it and liked it! I wore a nice scarf and big earings and went to stores, medical appointments, etc. I think I looked okay. Sure, some people did stare at me, but I don’t know it was a bad stare or good stare, and I really don’t care anyway. I really don’t care anymore if anyone suspects I have a cancer and going through chemo. I am not ashamed of it.
Yuyu,
Glad to hear you are feeling better. How nice of your boyfriend to buy Rock Band! We have it also & it is great family fun. I am usually the singer because I am not coordinated enough to play the guitar or drums. I have tried…and it is quite comical!
Be well,
Monica

Hi Yuyu,
I’m so glad your new treatment schedule is working out better for you.
You look so great in your beanie and in the scarf! I seldom wear my wig and usually wear a scarf. I too sometimes think that I don’t want to cover up what I am going through by wearing a wig . . . other times I do.
I too have been a crocheting maniac! I decided to make every member of my family something. The kids, mine and my neices are all getting scarves and beanies, my sister, mom, aunt, etc., are getting a Prayer Shawl. I’m sure that by the time I’m done I won’t want to crochet for a while!
That is great that your boyfriend got you that video game. We don’t have it but my kid’s friends do and they just love playing it. I might get it for us for Christmas this year.
Keep staying positive . . . .you look so good!
Hugs,
Wendy