Yuyu's Cancer Diary

Yuyu:
I first started coming on this web page because a close friend of mine has brain cancer. I’ve learned a lot just by reading everyone’s post. I do not have cancer, but did have a huge scare about about a lump in my left breast. But these were fluid cysts and I am greatful. I just wanted to offer my support to you and whether you have a boyfriend or not, you are truely a very special person. The next guy (and there will be one) you meet will realize just how special you are. I will keep you in my prayers. -Jane

Yuyu—
I’m so sorry to hear of the roller coaster ride you’ve been on. As for the boyfriend, well, he doesn’t know the wonderful person he’s letting go! Whether you have lost a breast or not, he obviously didn’t appreciate the person you are on the inside, which is what really matters. But don’t give up on relationships, as there are so many good people who don’t get hung up on things like that and can truly love you for who you are! As for the additional surgery that is contemplated, I guess I would lean towards having it, as I sure don’t want to experience cancer again if I can avoid it. But, I realize there are many ramifications, besides the fact that you are much younger than I am. Have faith that you will make the right decision. Good luck with the new job—I’m glad to hear that you are enjoying it—and enjoy that new apartment. Take care.

Martha

Posted on July 23, 2009 at 10:46:04 AM by mp327

Hi Yu!

So good to hear from you. I have been thinking about you. Sounds like you are plugging right along…a new apartment & a job you enjoy. Yay! That is fantastic!

I know the boyfriend was a huge support system for you, but he obviously isn’t the “one”. You are a beautiful lady, inside & out, so I have no doubt that you will meet your special someone that loves you for every bit of wonderfulness that you are.

I pray for complete healing & wellness for you. I know another surgery, especially a hysterectomy is the last thing you wanted to happen. At this point, whatever makes you healthy is what I would opt for.

I am here for you, Yuyu. Have a beautiful day, beautiful girl!

Hugs,

Monica

Posted on July 23, 2009 at 11:46:24 AM by monica1967

Hi Yuyu,

So good to see you posting on here again..it has been a while. Ok, so the BF is history – I say “nexttt”! :) And right now maybe it is good for you to not worry about meeting someone. Who needs that additional worry after everything you have been through? I firmly believe in destiny. When the time is right, you will meet the right “one” and he isn’t going to care about your hair, breast or anything else that is all so material. :) Stay focused on what is important – you & your health! I know you will be fine and it is good to hear from you again!

Posted on July 23, 2009 at 12:04:25 PM by lauren1979

YuYu!
Big hugs and all that. New digs sound cool, nice to have a fresh start. Too bad about the BF but life moves on.

As for your “marketability”. You are all you believe you are! You are beautiful and vibrant and strong. You have stared down cancer and won. You have scars that are earned, not given and that demands respect not pity. A man should be honored to be with a woman of your caliber.

Do not allow the world to dictate to you what makes you whole or attractive. You have a beauty that must be acknowledged and embraced, anyone who is not willing to do that is not worthy of your gift.

I am wise and I have spoken…no go and be beautiful, I will retire to my mountain and meditate.

Hugs
Mac

Posted on July 23, 2009 at 12:38:16 PM by rigidridr

Hugs YuYu! I am so sorry to read all of this. You are such a sweet, strong and amazing person and I know this won’t keep you down for long. My heart breaks along with your’s.

It’s great to read that you are back to work and you enjoy where you work and the people you work with.

I’m sending out dozens of hugs to you! You are in my thoughts and prayers sweetie!

Many more hugs and blessings,
Rose

Posted on July 23, 2009 at 2:30:12 PM by elanarosegraves

Oh Yuyu, Does it ever stop for us? As for losing your boyfriend, breast or no breast, chubbed or thin, he’s out there, there is someone who is going to adore you for who you are, your are a beautiful, wonderful person.

I am so very sorry for the out of control hormones, but do what will make and keep you healthy. We love you.

Blessings.

Posted on July 23, 2009 at 5:58:50 PM by angelwthwingz

Dear Yuyu,

Congratulations on all your new adventures! New job, new apartment, new hair, eventually new men…sounds like fun!

I’m sorry to hear about the news from your oncologist. It’s got to be so difficult to make that decision, especially when you are so young.

I’m also sorry about your breakup with your boyfriend. Sounds like he just wasn’t the “one.” The one is out there, though, and you two will find each other when the time is right. You are beautiful, smart, and stronger than most people can imagine. The right guy will see you and love you because of who you are now, with everything that’s happened, not in spite of it.

Enjoy your summer and let us know how things are going.

Peace,
Kathy

Posted on July 23, 2009 at 6:55:23 PM by curlygirl

Dear YuYu;

I was wondering how you were doing and now I know!
I am a little perplexed that the Tamoxofin isn’t working? I thought it was supposed to eliminate the estrogen in your body. I am on Arimidex which is the equivalent but for post menopausal women. NOw you are scaring me. I was under the impression that these two drugs take away most of the estrogen? Is there no other option? Have they discovered through a CT or MRI that it has spread? or is this a scare precautionary tactic? Have you gone onto the web to find out more? I’m sure you would rather not do this, but having said that, if there are more than a couple of Oncologists who are recommending it, then I guess you know the answer.

By the way, you are the bravest person, and you have been through so much right up till now. The fact that your boyfriend skipped town doesn’t bode well for his character. It’s better to find out now, rather than down the road. I know it must be hard, considering he was a major support to you. ONe thing you must not do, is question yourself in this breakup. He left and you are in this fight for serious reasons. If he can’t find it in his heart to stay, you are better off without the worry of how he is feeling about the situation. You need all your strength for your own well being. You know, men don’t do well with anyone who is anything but perfect in their own eyes. Maybe that is too general a position to take, but you will have to be more selective in your next choise of a boyfriend. You have an advantage, in that you have seen and been to some dark places. You now have better instincts for what is real and true, so don’t despair on that aspect of your life. You have a new job, new apartment, and now a new way to explore a more enriching relationship. How lucky can a girl get?

You have lots of friends here YuYu and I’m sure many where you live and work. Stay positive and make sure you fine tune what the Dr.’s are suggesting before leaping into another major surgery.

Take care and thanks so much for updating us on your health and life issues.

Posted on July 24, 2009 at 7:02:48 AM by weezie

Yuyu,
I just hate it when everything seems to go BAD at the same time. But here on this blog, we folks are made of stronger STUFF! The new job & apt are a great way to start off in a new adventure in your life. As for that X boyfriend, he’s part of your old life.
“Out with the old, In with the New” motto!
My daughter is 10 years older than you & had breast cancer 2 times & they did a hysteretomy. She did everything the Drs ordered. NOT me…
I quit tamoxifen after 13 months. I went to soy. It worked great for me, but you need to check out other ways of helping with hormones.
As for the marketable part of your life, we are our own “tele- marketers”. Who needs a loser? If he left you, that’s all he is. You don’t need that kind of grief. Hang in there girl….
Sandy

Posted on July 24, 2009 at 9:14:12 PM by granny10

Hiya Yuyu,

First off, I know what ya mean about not posting as much. I have been so stressed out that I haven’t wanted to post. You post when you feel like it, and remember – we are always here to listen, love and support…

Okay, now the moving into a new place is just what you needed. YIPPIE! We reapinted our house and put up crown moulding so, the place looks like a new home. It makes a difference. You must be thrilled to have a pool close by!

As for your loser X – shame on him for being so emotionally selfish, but you don’t need people like that anyway. Someone will come along when you least exspect it…How do I know? Because I know you and you are awesome!

I’ll keep you posted as to when I am coming to LA for a visit!

Love,
Sonia

Posted on July 24, 2009 at 9:51:19 PM by bleunote

Hi, Yuyu! Good to hear from you! Congrats on the new job and new apartment! Sorry about the BF. I imagine its difficult, even though you know it will turn out to be for the best. You are a strong, beautiful woman and your scars prove it! Don’t let anyone make you feel less than.

Sorry to hear that the tamoxifen is not doing what its supposed to. Keep us posted about the hysterectomy.

Posted on July 25, 2009 at 9:38:13 AM by littleprincess

Hi Yuyu

we havn’t talked before but I have been reading your blog for a while now. I am sorry to hear about your bf. It couldn’t happen at a worse time. (like ther’s a good time) and also about the Tamoxifen. I Just finished my chemo& started in on the Tamoxifen so far i have been doing ok with it . I get really snappy& get wicked hotflashes. I guess I will see about getting surgery soon. I also have breast cancer. From what I’ve read your a very strong lovely person & i’m sure you will get through this too. Congrats on your new job & new apartment. Good luck & be well.

Posted on July 25, 2009 at 7:54:54 PM by colleenryan

Yuyu,

Marketability???! My dear woman, what the heck is that???! If it is what I think you mean, then hells bells you are very marketable. Woman, you are beautiful and the extra weight just means there is more of you to love and hug! And any man with a right mind and a right spirit should be glad to have a beautiful woman like you. If not, they are not worth your time or effort.

Let me give you a little laughter. My dear, as you age and get over 50, women’s breasts start to sag and at 60 they sag more and at 70, they drop down to your waist and sometimes you can flip them over your shoulder! ha ha ha Just ask me, because mine have started growing back (after cancer and chemotherapy) and they are hitting my stomach! tee hee hee Now that is what you have to look forward to even with one breast. ha ha ha

That should either cheer you up or make you sad! Frankly, it cheered me up just typing it. ha ha ha

Love, hugs and prayers

sweete 2 better known as Ethel Craven-Sweet, the sweet one smile

Posted on July 28, 2009 at 6:00:51 AM by sweete2